Class Dismissed

Well, this Thursday will be my last day teaching. I am feeling happy but yet at the same time reluctant. I can't explain this mixed feelings as I myself am a little confused.

The only reason why I feel happy leaving the school is because of the "students". My definition of "students" here refer to those who are reluctant to study and have a major attitude problem. Facing this kind of students makes me feel like a loser, as thought I failed to be a good educator, one that is going to shape their future, one who is suppose to guide them the correct path to be someone who will turn out to be good not only in the sense of IQ but also EQ. I always label them as monkeys as they are so hard to be controlled at times that I myself would give up. Seeing them as they refuse to take advice makes me upset, and wondering whether how is their future would to be like. Are they going to be successful? Are they going to be involved in social stigmas?
What will happen to them with their personalities and level of intellect? This questions bugged me all the time when I see them.

Well school is not all that bad. There are things that made me glad too.

The things that made me feel happy is when I get to gain experience when teaching the students as I myself am learning something at the same time. Some times when I am teaching a certain topic, I actually discovered that maths is all linked in certain ways that we can't see until you do it. SO the discovery part is what made me feel like I am Archimedes.

Besides that, getting to work with teachers, my colleagues, made me a more matured person. I have to think before doing anything or else I can offend someone. Not only that, my colleagues, my friends, actually helped me through a lot of tough times when I am in the teaching career. By the surface, teaching seems like an easy job. And because of this, social peers have changed. The misconception is that teachers are not highly educated people. There are people who depicted teachers as some one who contributes less to the social community. Yet, I am still proud to be a teacher although just a substitute teaching.

Last but not least, the one thing that made me happy is when students score well in exams. The one thing that all educators want is their apprentice to be successful. Seeing students being young and energetic, fresh and innocent really reminded me of my schooling time. The bonds formed between us is so unique and it cant be described with mere words. Or maybe it's because the age gap is not big between me and my fellow students that makes it easier for us to communicate.

At the end of the day, I will still have to move on, they too have to move on, where we will go our separate ways, but the same goal, which is to pursue our studies and to achieve our dreams to be a successful person which is able to contribute back to the society which we grew up in.

Thanks, everyone.

First and foremost I would like to thank my parents, my aunts, my cousin, Dr Sam and his wife, other family members and friends who have been really supportive. You have sacrificed your precious time on me for helping me to get through this one tough week. Because of this minor MUnsyI test, all of you have been doing a lot for me when I have almost given up hope.

Well, I have sat for the test this afternoon. It went on smoothly. So, hopefully it will turn out to be fruitful at the end. And hopefully I can get into USM to do pharmacy so I wouldn't let you all down.

Before I pen off, I would like to once again thank all those who have been there for me all the while. Thank you so much.

First time going to a concert.

Today was my first time going to a concert. Well guess what concert is it?
Hehe, it's David Archuleta promotion concert.
Frankly speaking, I wasn't all that over excited though. Anyway I have to thank Pek Yee for tickets. ^^
The concert was suppose to start at 3pm, so we went there at 2pm. The stadium was packed with people already. In the hot and humid afternoon, typical Malaysia's weather, I was feeling frustrated. Without further ado, we looked for the "best" spot for the show. The crowd was so enthusiastic that they even scream and shout at the top of their lungs when the DJ flash the spot lights.

And so we wait... The sky was starting to get dark.

And wait... It started to pour cats and dogs.

And wait... The stadium is getting packed. People's ugly side are turning in.

Patience... Fanatics are screaming "David~~~" with ear piercing voices.

OMG! When will this thing start?

Finally after 2 miserable hours, the DJ came on stage. At that moment, there was this ray of hope. But to my dismay, some other 'ke-le-fe' sang. =.="
Oh! Not to mention Daniel from Malaysian Idol Season 2 sang, too.

When the DJ finally mention that David was to sing next, the crowd gave the standing ovation. Well of course my vision was blocked so I too have to stand up. Guys and girls alike, starting to scream and shout and yell with all their might. Their voices became so loud and sharp until I had to close my ear.

It was getting annoying and frustrating because I just can't hear David singing anymore. All I heard was girls screaming "I love you, David" and the audience singing along when he is singing.

Here is the footage,



Well, the video is the courtesy of my dear friend, Pek Yee again. Erm, ignore her singing my shocked looking face.
Basically, you cant hear or even see David singing. Sad.

After the whole event, the whole place was filled with rubbish, typical Malaysian culture of littering. When exiting, people actually push and cut line.

Sigh, is that Malaysian culture or is it just me?
Maybe I am being to pessimistic.
Or maybe I am not used to all this sort of activity.
OMG, I think I have self conflict!
Come to think of it, this concert was kinda enjoyable.